To The Parents, Teachers and Children Who Include My Son

Way back, when I had my perfect world in my head with all the ideas of what it would be like to have a child and all the things he would do and achieve, I never even considered I would be worrying about whether he would invited to parties, included on school trips or asked…

Back to School Blues

Five hours previously I had posted a picture with a brief message alluding to Joseph’s successful first day back in the school saddle; I’d been mentioned on twitter as part of  ‘7 Special Needs Mother Bloggers You Must Follow’; had a decent run after dropping laddo off at school and bought the dog’s bollocks of all…

Is Your Child Ugly?

‘Is your son autistic?’ A simple enough question you would think but it provoked further thought and left me wondering whether it’s acceptable for people to be so blunt. I was recently asked this question whilst we were on holiday and initially I thought, ‘how nice that someone feels comfortable to be able to ask me that…

Dear Joseph

Dear Joseph I want to say that I fell in love with you the moment I discovered I was pregnant; I didn’t. I want to be able to say that I loved you from the moment I saw your screwed up face, dark brown hair with the bright birthmark across your nose; I didn’t. I…

The Dog’s Bollocks

Get ready for this. I’ve been on holiday. Again. Now sit down, because I what I am about to tell you next will have some people gasping inwardly. I went away without Joseph. Again. And not only that, I am about to embark on yet another holiday but this time with our children. I see…

Riding the Storm

For someone who complains frequently that they don’t get enough sleep, you may find it hard to believe that on a morning when Joseph is at his Dad’s, I was up at 06:30. No Joseph to blame but heat, a muddle of thoughts in my head and a burning desire to get out and run….

There is nobody

who has less sleep than me. Well there might be, but I am sure I have less sleep than anyone I know. Yes, back to my favourite topic of sleep deprivation and my understanding that nobody is more tired than me. Don’t get me wrong, I would love to be flying the flag of “Nobody…

210 Seconds of Hell

The day after I published my last blog post, I lost Joseph. Twice. Ironic that I had spoken about understanding and here was a perfect example of him showing no awareness of danger and then there was me completely misjudging a situation. I know this will have happened to more than just me, but I couldn’t…

Understanding

Each day, I question what understanding Joseph does or does not have. Sometimes I think he struggles to comprehend a basic question or instruction, for example yesterday when I asked him about his lunchtime. His class has been facilitating sporting activities each day and I asked him what sports he had done. His response was,…

Strength

Over the last week, I have been asked a number of questions around autism from a variety of friends and I was pleased that my openness had allowed those questions to be posed. There would have been a time that I felt it uncomfortable to discuss autism unless it was on my terms.  I’m not…